ONE DAY, SOMEDAY, TOMORROW
Author: Susyn Grace Reeve

How do you change a thought, how do you live into a new thought, how do you embody a new thought? The starting point is waking up to the current thoughts; then consciously making choices about the thoughts we have and creating a new thought pattern, a new habit of thinking. Here's one story:

I am a 52 year old woman. From the time I was a pre-teen growing up in Manhattan I looked in magazines, store windows, people watched and fantasized, thinking that: one day I will dress like that, someday I will be beautiful, tomorrow I will get the perfect wardrobe.

During the past 42 years I have had moments, glimpses of that experience. When I did have a dress or an outfit that signaled that one day was Today and I was complimented, particularly by a man, that triggered a major eating binge, often lasting months and resulting in a 20, 30, 50lb. weight gain. So there I was, in my 50’s repeating the well-worn phrases: one day I will dress like that, someday I will be beautiful, tomorrow I will get the perfect wardrobe; yearning to be beautiful and certain that I wasn’t.

During the 42 years this was going on I was also coming to know that we are all creators, made in the image of a Loving Creator and that our creations begin with our Word, our thoughts. One day it occurred to me that if I truly wanted to be beautiful it was time to have new thoughts and faith (believing in something 100%) in those new thoughts. And so my journey unfolded………………The wait was over, one day, someday, tomorrow was headed for today.

I am an apprentice with don Miguel Ruiz, who wrote the power-full best seller: The Four Agreements. Eighty of us meet with him for the weekend every 3 – 5 weeks. On the first weekend I noticed Tatyana. She is beautiful. She basks in her beauty. She describes herself as exotically feminine – a current day Goddess. She dresses beautifully. She and I connected. I have always had beautiful girlfriends, I simply thought they were beautiful and I wasn’t. In the arena of beauty we were unequal. Men would notice them and not me. There was no competition between us – I was clearly out of their league. I felt badly about this inside me but this is just the way it was, being beautiful for me, if it existed at all was simply one day, someday, tomorrow – not today. And there were so many criteria for that one day that the list was too long for me to even know all the categories. Some of them were: when I’m the right weight, when I exercise regularly, when I have a boyfriend……………..my guess is some of the others were when my nails are all the perfect length, when my hair looks a certain way, when the moon is in a certain position, when the rainfall is a particular number of inches, when I have a certain amount of money in my bank account and on and on and on……………….

On our second weekend with Miguel, Tatyana and I talked and connected. The next weekend we were together I woke early on Sunday morning. My air mattress and sleeping bag were next to Tatyana. As I noticed her asleep next to me I began having a conversation with her in my mind. I said: “Tatyana, you are so beautiful, you dress so beautifully, you seem comfortable being beautiful, would you go clothes shopping with me?” The next thing I knew, Tatyana was awake and said good morning to me. I told her that I had just been talking with her in my mind, and I repeated the words aloud to her. She smiled and said that she’d Love to go shopping with me. I was moving toward Today. The wait was over, I was ready to be beautiful, to take the beauty I felt on the inside and show it on the outside. We made a date for our Power Journey Shopping Extravaganza. July 10, 2001 was the day. Tatyana gave me an assignment to go through magazines and cut out what beauty looks like to me in clothes and not to limit myself by thinking that I could never wear that. As July 10th approached some doubts echoed in my mind and I wondered if I would find anything to buy, would anything I loved fit me, would I be disappointed, When I heard those thoughts I replaced them with new thoughts: I will find beautiful clothes, Tatyana will be there to help, God is my partner in this – I am beautiful.

July 10, 2001: I drive to Fashion Valley in San Diego to meet Tatyana. There are some cell phone calls and we decide to meet in Macy’s . I am thinking that once we meet, we’ll leave Macy’s and our extravaganza will proceed to smaller shops and maybe Nordstroms. While I imagined that Macy’s probably has a large selection I think it is too middle of the road for the transformation that is about to take place. Tatyana appears, looking beautiful and after hugs and giggles we sit down for some beauty instruction. She points out colors that enhance my coloring and shows me the difference between the enhancers and the colors that drain my natural color or compete with my natural coloring. I'm ready to practice and decide to pick out some things in Macy’s to try on to get ideas and see what works. I may not even buy anything this first go round, I am simply getting clearer about what enhances my beauty. It is Tuesday morning about 11:30am we are the only people in the dressing room, trying on many things and commenting: "that looks great on you, it enhances you; that color drains all the color out of you; that style gives you a long, graceful look; no, that doesn’t work at all……..”.

Tatyana tells me that the pale green silk beaded skirt and top look great on me and I have to buy it. When I look in the mirror all I see is how fat I am. She tells me I don’t look fat at all. I know that my eyes are simply seeing what they are used to seeing and that I need some help. I ask Tatyana to describe to me what she sees when she looks at me in this green outfit. I ask her to help me see differently. I trust that I can use her eyes to show my eyes how to see me as beautiful. She says: “If I saw you walking into a room, dressed in this outfit I would think: there is a beautiful woman, she is comfortable in her beauty. She is graceful, creative and confident, she is open to expressing her beauty in the way she dresses and to be her beauty.” That sounds good to me. I decide to buy some of the clothes I had tried on. I go to pay for mine and discover that if I open a charge account I can get 10% off and that many of the items cost less than their already marked down price. The clothes, the prices and the saleswoman are all conspiring and assisting me to step into Today. While I am paying Tatyana discovers a sale rack: 65% off. I go to that rack and along with Tatyana find more beautiful clothes to try on. Every cell of my being is saying YES – and the clearer the yes, the more there is to take into the dressing room.

Round two in the dressing room: I put on a pair of british tan pants. I put the top over my head, a dark green rayon top that feels like cashmere and embraces my body in its sensual feel, arrange the turtle neck and as I look into the mirror, the me I had yearned for, the me I had hoped would one day, someday, tomorrow be there was looking at me, she was my reflection in the mirror. She was smiling, she was beautiful, she was me, I saw her. In the sacred cathedral of Macy’s, the store that I bought my Girl Scout uniform in as a child, magic was happening. The wait was over. I am beautiful and I am sharing my beauty today, and today and today.








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Susyn Grace Reeve is an inter-faith minister organization & personal development consultant and motivational speaker. She works with organizations and individuals to wake-up to their dreams and goals and to live into them ~. She is an apprentice with don Miguel Ruiz revsusyngrace@aol.com

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